Topic: October 2005
After multiple naps and lots of relaxing; I'm feeling better.

I even sewed a bit this weekend. I had some orange and turquoise onionskin that I made up 2 tops with. One for me and one for my sister. I just love this pattern ruffle top by Christine Jonson, it is so easy and with onion skin it doesn't even need to be hemed, but I did a 3 thread rolled edge on the sleeves and bottom hem, leaving the ruffle raw. It is really cute and no gaposis in the neckline. Although I'm not as modest as I used to be since all this cancer, chemo crap. My thinking now, is if you got it, show it off, because it doesn't last long. So, if my top gaps and you get a glimps of my bra or a little extra clevage (yea, like I ever had that!), who cares! Just no thongs out the back, that is major fashion faux paux! So, ladies, bat those eye lashes, swing that hair, push up those breasts... tomorrow's another day and who knows what's in store.

Speaking of lashes, I don't know why I'm still trying to apply mascara in the morning (habit?), most of my lashes are gone, and then I got these teenie, tiny, little growths that I'm trying to apply mascara to, and all I do is make a mess all over my lids. I should just put on the pencil liner and be done with it.
I always had really long lashes and took them for granted; I can't wait for them to grow back, so I can bat my eyes.

Oh, it's Halloween, I was trying to find a long black coat or something, I thought I could dress up as Uncle Fester. Long Black coat, bald head, and dark rings around my eyes: don't need much for that except to wash my face and put on the coat. I think I could scare the kids with that look. Maybe I can find one by tonite.
Happy Halloween!!

Truck, Bus, Train? Didn't see it, but felt it.
Topic: October 2005
Feels like I was run over by a bus. Every bone and joint in my body aches. I suppose this is how I'd feel if I climbed Mt. Whitney (in one day), except I'd have the endorphines and the excitement of something grand! All I've done is lounge around on the couch at home, and sit at my desk at work. My brain doesn't even want to think. People have suggested marijuana as something to alleviate the symptoms, but seems it would just add to the clouded head, cotton mouth, and dazed look. But maybe it would balance the chemicals in my body and bring me back to normal. It's a thought.

Blah, Blah, Blah
Topic: October 2005
Not much new to report; same crap, different tune, or is that same tune different crap. My fingers feel like they are fumbeling and they tingle. This is one of the side effects. This is probably why Melissa Etheridge didn't go through with this course of treatment, it affected her guitar playing and maybe her career. Well, at least now I have something to blame my typos on....

But it is only temporary, so I don't care. I'm tired, and feel like I was run over by a steam roller, but I can eat and only need a few Tums to alleviate the indigestion. All in all, the Taxotere is much more tolerable then the Adriamycin and Cytoxan. I was so done with that, and glad I am.

Today my sister is meeting with a tile guy and a door guy, getting estimates for me. She's been a huge help with this unexpected remodel. Only 1 more week til the painter comes and then 3 more weeks until most of my things are moved back in....
I'll have my computer back, and photo editing software and be able to post photos, etc. to share.

I'm not feeling inspiring or humerous today, just tired, so c-ya

Onward
Topic: October 2005
Well, the "new" chemo seems to be better then the last batch of poison. A few tums and the indigestion is gone. However, I'm tired; maybe that's because the steriods have worn off.

The change of time this weekend will give me that extra hour of sleep I seem to look for in the mornings.

I had a spurt of energy yesterday and hauled out the shop vac and vacuumed the upstairs - all that saw dust, ash, soot, and smoke webs. I can't wait until it's done, it will look so nice. I even sewed a little last weekend. I put a binding on a quilt that I made and will put in the new guest room. Ah, the sound of the machine humming through fabric.